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Cake day: September 2nd, 2023

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  • I’d sew stuffed animals donate them to hospitals. I would also put on scavenger hunts for kids to find them around town! It’d be a good activity for kids to do with their siblings, parents, friends, etc.

    I would open up a bearded dragon rescue again and possibly turn it into a sanctuary!

    I’d learn how to use saws and do woodworking to create fun & interesting furniture! I can already do upholstery, but I’d love to make something from the ground up.

    I’d apply for a wildlife rehab permit & help animals.

    I’d learn how to code games and put my rusty Blender skills to work!

    Gosh… there’s honestly so much I’d like to do… but I am poor, uninsured, and living paycheck-to-paycheck, so I don’t have the time or money to do any of it.

    It’s nice to think about, though.














  • To be fair, I’m not at all offended by your desires! I understand that some folks have desires that are not necessarily rooted to reality. A fantasy, and that’s perfectly fine. Of course no one wants PTSD.

    I think my concerns lie in that disconnect, though. Someone fantasizing about a threesome, meeting a historical figure, or a positive experience is something I’d understand. A desire to experience a tragedy? It’s a bit alarming. Even knowing that you’re just curious about the factual experience, the disassociation from the reality of human suffering paired with the events may cause a pause.

    If you’re questioning yourself about your desires or people close to you have expressed concern over these thoughts, I’d say go to a professional and talk to someone. Otherwise, research into it. Explore these events, read,watch documentaries, interviews, and things like that.

    The human mind is a weird thing. Not inherently bad– just weird. And it’s okay to explore that and think about things sometimes.



  • I am a sufferer of PTSD from various horrific traumas.

    In short: yes. It’s weird. You should talk to a professional about it.

    If I could take away these debilitating, paralyzing memories and responses my body has formed due to trauma, I would. It prevents me from living a normal life and I suffer from it every day. Even have a note in my charts that lets medical professionals know that my massively elevated heart rate & blood pressure are a trauma/anxiety-response, not an underlying condition.

    I guess maybe I’d view your desire as those kids on Tiktok that were mimicking/cosplaying mental illness, autism, & Tourettes syndrome, because they didn’t really understand the implications of suffering that a lot of folks who have those things go through.

    Again: I’d strongly suggest seeing a professional about this.