okbin

yeeeah.

i’m trying to use dystopia but… it’s not really usable for me yet.

ended up just coming on here today. which is a good thing. kbin deserves all the love.

it’s just that so much is still over on reddit.

cinnamon toast crunch

not since the shrimp incident…

and i’m testing the seven seas. arrr! 🏴‍☠️

nope. BPDmemes… which is just fucking sad because BPD is associated with identity issues including gender identity, so in some sense being transphobic can be ableist in that context as well.

i’m letting it go, they were probably just really dysregulated (as is the nature of this illness). but i did ban them for all of pride month.

however, my friend and i HAVE seen transphobia in the owl house community and we don’t understand??? there are literally multiple trans characters on the show like why would you be transphobic if you’re a fan you. walnut

kbin has seemed pretty chill so far

they won’t

i tried to move my 100k subscriber sub to kbin (i also offered two different chatrooms)

6 came to kbin and people started attacking me for having the sub closed (one person even resorted to transphobia like jesus fucking christ) and being “political” and one person even made their own version of my subreddit

moving is too much work (it’s actually not that much work, but since we now need two videos playing at the same time and can only watch those vids for 30 seconds, everything is “too much work”). that’s why people are still on facebook, twitter, instagram, and tiktok.

i’m very glad there’s an acceptable amount of activity on the “threadiverse” right now… but i just don’t have hope that everyone will leave.

THANK YOU ESTONIA, HAPPY PRIDE

@IllegalLifeProTips

can you see who gives upvotes/downvotes?

hard to say. i have been told i care too much about downvotes. maybe people just don’t admit how much it bothers them? i know they say upvotes, likes, hearts, etc. are a major dopamine hit, so i don’t see why the opposite (a dopamine drain) wouldn’t be true

i’ve been on reddit for… 6-7 years? it’s fine. i mean by that logic i should unalive myself, because everything is triggering. at best, it gives me an opportunity to practice my coping skills. at worst… i feel uncomfortable for a bit, don’t cope well, and whine about it to a friend lmao (which, to me, is also me trying to confirm i didn’t do anything Wrong)

i could be wrong, but i feel like upvotes make downvotes unnecessary, as upvoted content will naturally be recognized, while comments that don’t get upvotes probably aren’t valuable (and they might totally be valuable… just unnoticed)

i will say… i do like that kbin shows upvotes and downvotes together. feels less shitty.

alternatively… could be more shitty if you get a ton of downvotes and no upvotes!

downvotes REALLY bother me. why it bothers me personally: i have severe mental health issues (to the point of disability). due to how i grew up, i heavily internalized being and accepting that i’m always bad and horrible and wrong and punishing myself for it. when i get criticized or downvoted - even if it’s silly - i feel HORRIBLE, because obviously i MUST’VE done something VERY BAD and VERY WRONG and i must be PUNISHED and i must CORRECT. and it’s even more frustrating when i don’t know what to correct. bonus, i have autism and adhd, so i can say things considered “wrong” and not know why, but people won’t explain it to me because apparently i should magically know. and i don’t want to be a bad person, but now i’m suddenly a bad person and i don’t know what to do about it.

this is just ME. i don’t think it applies to most people. and inb4 “bruh it’s just a downvote, it’s not that deep, touch grass” AGREED. BIG AGREE. but if you understand anything about psychology, it can take a very long time to undo stuff that’s so deeply ingrained from childhood, if it can be undone at all. i have actually heavily improved in this area in terms of recognizing i’m not necessarily wrong and rarely need to be punished, but the emotional reaction sadly has not changed much.

also, some (not all) people just seem to use downvotes as a personal attack, and that’s just annoying as hell. i think people can relate to this much more.

i try hard not to downvote, because i don’t think it’s necessary most of the time. people seem to downvote the silliest things…

hoping they don’t remove me. i temporary privated my sub for mental health reasons because people were getting mad at me for joining the protest when i was opening back up

i made my sub during a very rough time in my life and i’d rather not lose it. i’ve been thinking about alternate ways of protesting but idk right now.

i like linux

people think i’m a hacker because i use the terminal sometimes

i don’t know shit bruh

this might seem silly, but - while the lag is frustrating - it kinda reminds me of the old internet and it’s weirdly nostalgic for me? lmao

people downvoting don’t understand a parody account