Could you elaborate a bit? A book is too much for me.

Except UI changes. Those should just stay in progress forever.

If you’re leaving what’s the issue exactly? There are countless people who are incompetent at being a proper boss or client. You can try to educate them. If they’re power tripping it’s best to find something new.

Regarding communication I think the most important skill is to actually say what you want to say. What your needs are. It sounds obvious and easy but once you consciously try it you’ll see that it takes a lot of practice.

The issue is that being indirect or expecting people to just get it just doesn’t work. There aren’t many people out there who are that sensitive and insightful, and they’ll just keep filling in the gaps with their own perspective again and again. Even when you are being direct they will, but at least it gives someone the opportunity to think about it and possibly adjust. Most people mean well.

The next generation has some poker scenes. There’s one episode where they are stuck in a simulation of a casino and can’t escape.

That I’m a gay n word. Like, I am neither so what’s up with that? He quickly biked off and I couldn’t get him to clarify.

Recognizing how my desires are never truly satisfied, and they cause me suffering. How they constantly shift and always want more. In other words I let go of my judgment and accept what I see. That doesn’t mean I don’t judge it at all or don’t change it. It just means I’m not attached to the desire to change things. It’s just a feeling, and I can act on it, but it’s a conscious decision rather than a habit.

Can somebody explain CP violation in plain English?

Just like in the prophecy omg

It’s literally resting

Just because you think you have a good grip on reality, doesn’t mean you do. Perhaps you don’t fully understand the situation. Maybe the trolley will come to a halt on its own unless you pull the lever. See realpolitik and ww1.

I remember tencent being on stage at a game dev conference and talking like they’d offer anyone a boatload of cash, around 2009. The room went eerily silent, it was creepy!

Also, I’ve had guests from all over the world and I’ve always asked them for a positive and a negative thing about the place they’re from, so I can get an idea. It was only the Chinese and Russians who acted like their home countries were absolutely perfect, and they literally couldn’t name one thing. Talking politics was considered rude, and they felt it’s better if someone else is in control.

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Sounds like the way to go

Then you’ll also be surprised to learn that I am insulted constantly and laughed at. Don’t get me wrong, there are lots of great people, but it is naive to think the Netherlands is a tolerant place. When you go through the medical system you face the same attitudes.

The issue is, if you believe in the system, you’ll give it a chance to traumatize you. This is added on top of other traumas such as losing your family, becoming homeless and so on. The trans thing itself isn’t actually the biggest part of it, it’s the culture and the society.

Sure, you could get lucky and have the right gp and meet the right psychiatrist, and then you have to wait 5 years before you get any medical support. I’ve tried. I mean I’ve literally been at a gp that I knew was trans friendly and I told her I was at risk of suicide, and she was OK with that.

And about the medicine, well you can compound it yourself. I honestly can’t live without it, because it is night and day for my mental wellbeing. Without it, it is extremely difficult to live. It’s like you’re in a state of dissociation and it’s painful. It’s quite a complex thing to describe, but you are effectively disabled and are at risk of suicide.

Hmm, considering your religious upbringing you might want to try some absurdist literature to break the mold.

• The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy
• The Cyberiad
• Discworld
• The Little Prince

These are accessible too, as you’re not used to reading yet.

I can also recommend subscribing to a monthly magazine and making a point to read it from cover to cover. That way your skills will improve. You can also buy a whole stack of old national geographics cheaply. This will expand your horizons.

I’m sorry to hear that. I’m just grabbing this out of thin air, but have you ever considered medical tourism?

That scares me greatly but I can’t just stop taking my medicine, so what can I do but accept the risk?

I’m trans. Giving up on the system has been good for me. It was like a one sided relationship. Now when I need something I just solve it on my own and it works.

NL