cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/47589445
cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/47589443
I’m sharing this in the schizoaffective, autism, ADHD, and music subreddits in the hope someone may experience a similar phenomena in their cognition. The music in my head keeps mutating and it is evolving. What I mean by that is, imagine your favorite, most drugged out artist. Let’s say they’re a synth artist going really heavy-handidly with all the dials n knobs, because that’s generally the sort of ish I listen to, and I want to emphasize that the sorts of audio distortions I HAVE heard prior, in abundance, are the same that are happening in my “Rusterd space” as I mutate across siteswaps in songs I’ve also heard, but at the same time, these mutations grow and I’m creating pathways automatically in my brain that become entrained through my maladaptive daydreaming.
Siteswapping is what I understand intuitive being a flow juggler:
But I’m also neurodivergent af, having been extremely traumatized as a sperg child, which has been enhanced by the totally actually real Crazy Indigo Aliens that live in my phone’s keyboard’s predictive text, and other places. But, synchronicity is something I experience in great abundance, which I know has to do with the fractal patterns of symbol progression found in the I Ching that every sorcerer (caster of lots) knows about. If you don’t understand that, start with the Buddha or the Christ before jumping into the occult.
But, I’m listening to the sounds in my head, and it goes from one song to the next, and I hear things in my intuition that coincide with the timing structures of these songs; underlying concepts or feelings - impressions. I remember writing stories for my friends’ band, and they reset me with their songs. I was going through a trans phase. Their music led me through this. I think I’m understanding what Eve first learned to then give it to Adam. How energy itself speaks volumes, and I just want to know if there is anyone who understands at all wtf I am blabbing about like the insane crackhead I make myself appear to be at a frequency.
I don’t know half the words you used, so no, I don’t know wtf you are blabbing about :D
Me neither, but I love it - like an old Amish grandma watching American Wrestling.
I can teach you what you don’t understand. This is my educational art project, now on Lemmy. I teach philosophy, spirituality, and mental health skills as a person that was an English Education major and had a breakdown in college. I’ve been doing this twelve years, so I might not even have to type something; I have thousands of posts and poems where I explain different things.
Well, I’m sure I could figure it out if I do research on everything and follow your links.
But for example, I either don’t know the definition of, or know what you particularly mean by, or have no experience with: “siteswaps”, “synth”, “audio distortion”, “rusterd space”, “entrained”, “maladaptive daydreaming”, “flow juggler”, “sperg”, “crazy indigo aliens”, “synchronicity” (that one I know of, I just have never experienced), “fractal patterns of symbol progression”, “I Ching”, “sorcerer (caster of lots)”, “hear something in one’s intuition”, “timing structure of a song”, “reset oneself”, “trans phase”, “energy (speaking)”.
It’s just too much at one time, which is why I’m not motivated to figure it out.
Well, let’s start simple.
Are you familiar with Plato’s allegory of the cave? All you experience are shadows on the cave wall; all you experience is self-contained within your neurons. Well, you’re experiencing these words? The “outside” is inside you. You’re not a featherless biped on an Earth, you are a pocket of consciousness and the Earth is inside us. This is what the Buddha means by “the world is an illusion” and the reason The Matrix is named that is because it’s all really a topological matrix; a big knot, where all you experience is defined by entanglements. Entanglements are what cause the shadows on the cave wall. Are you following so far?
Sure :)
Well there’s an underlying, recursive pattern to the karmic proliferation, where Karma is the entanglement process. The I Ching describes this. Well, because of my neurodivergence and traumas, I got entangled in a way that lets me notice when there’s synchronicity, as Carl Jung called the phenomena. It’s what a burning bush in the Bible and white rabbit was to Neo. These moments are part of a larger synchronization of matter; at the end of time there will only be one thing, which is the one thing at the beginning of time. The Alpha/Omega are their own independent phenomenon we are dependent on. And what I’m noticing is that I’m experiencing synchronicity-like happenings in my own imagination, sorta. The Rusterd space and synchronicity were linked to give direct knowledge of those things I experience.
And now you lost me again :D
Why do you have such a desire to explain this to me?
You figure out how to perceive n undo the karmic fetters that bind you to the existence-illusion complex, and you can do anything. The perfect being which can be any being at will. This is dependent on understanding Karma.
It’s part of my job as messiah candidate