In the last year or so I started to see so many people of my age that have done truly incredible things and still doing more.
For the vast majority of my life my only goals were gettimg academic satisfaction and doing unproductive stuff in the free time to get temporary pleasure. No end goal whatsoever.
I kind of don’t know what I’ve been doing in the last 17 years while someone gets a patent on solar systems, other invents a new recyclable plastic, and another found a successful startup. I mean, they all find what they’re supposed to be doing with their lives and excel in them.
I feel overwhelmed for trying to pace up with these kind of people. Yet I don’t like the way the things are and I can’t do anything but envy those people.
Anyone with experience in this regard? How did you deal with this? Did you eventually “pace up” with these people or was it too late or an unattainable goal?
Edit: Whoops, I didn’t expect so many replies! Thanks, I’ll look into them all
Yep. Nothing’s ever worked out, I’ve never had the opportunity, ability, and inspiration to get anything done. Some inspiration but I just can’t. Mental problems, financial problems, social problems, always something in the way and I just kinda give up and play video games for a few months because that’s all I can do. All’ the cheap philosophy around here is like, “Oh, but you have a warm bed and a safe home and Internet access” but the bed’s too warm to sleep some nights, the “home” is really not safe or healthy for me, and the Internet is a pile of memes and memers and several kinds of news that make me glad humanity’s driving itself extinct and ready to jump ahead on that. I’m just not compatible with this hell-world.
It’s a journey, they say. Yeah, the kind of journey where some of us get tied to a truck and dragged around town. “Enjoy the ride!” they say. Yeah, sure.
Anyway, what the bollocks am I even doing here? Idunno. Answer is yes, you’re not the only one who feels like it’s all been a waste but I think it’s not just a “you’re some kinda loser” sort of thing. While it’s true that not everyone can or should do “incredible things” it’s also the case that this world’s pretty aggressively built to prevent much of anything from happening :-\ Go to work, rest for work tomorrow, repeat, repeat, repeat. Consume some memes. No thoughts, no room to breathe. It’s amazing that anyone does accomplish anything. And then it gets taken and sold. still rantyrambling for some reason. Better just post and hope no one notices, I guess